Sorry

"I loved you even before the very moment
you saw my face. I loved you even before
you knew who I was and what we meant
to each other.
And even if this moment never came.
I'd still be in love with you from a distance
or in my deepest dreams."

I always tell myself that I don't regret anything in my life.
But it's not true. I have so much things to regret. There
are so much that I shouldn't have done before I met you.
That if so, I could have been worthy and deserving.
Being with you is the best thing that happened in my life.
I don't want to lose you. And yet, when I hold you in my arms
I ache to hold you tighter and ache even more not to do it.
For you are so fragile and I am the thorn you had chosen
to love. I had never felt such emotion in my life.
Quite scared to embrace you and hurt you. But when I did,
I am even more in fear that I had struck your heart and
pulling you away from me, will make you bleed to death.
Somehow I tell myself, I shouldn't have pulled your
attention towards me. I should have been contented with
seeing you smile from a distance. I should have stayed
in this little dark corner and confessed how I adore you to
the cold night breeze.
But now that it's too late, I won't let anyone hurt you...
not even my own self.